1 week

In one weeks time:

I will be spending my last night at home before I become a working Mama.

I know, I know, I am sure that you are tired of hearing about me going back to work. But right now, obviously it is heavy on my mind.

The more I think about it, the more excited I am getting about going back to work, and having a "purpose". Of course, I know that raising my kids, and watching others is/was a job, and hugely important, but it sorta felt like I didn't do anything...does that make any sense? Maybe, more so, it was that it felt like I didn't do anything for me. I love being my kids mom, don't get me wrong, but it is so easy to lose yourself in the day to day grind of raising them. I am excited to be able to be a Mom, and yet be able to go to a job, interact with adults, do my work and feel like I have accomplished something at the end of the day. I am looking forward to taking those hours while I am at work, and focus on being Shannon. After work, believe me, I will be so excited to go pick up my kids, and be their Mom. As cliche as it sounds, I really do think in this case, "abscence makes the heart grow fonder" and my time away from my 2 little monkey's will allow me to not only be me, but to appreciate the time I do have with them, and ensure that our time is quality time.

Of course, there is absolutely no way that this will be the perfect solution, and I know there will be days where I will feel pulled in a thousand directions, where I will regret the decision I have made, but given the choices that I have, this is the best one. All of us will be fine. And I am not the only Mom who works full time.

Somethings are gonna have to give though....so...if you come and visit us here in Vogelville, do not be alarmed...our house will not be clean.